Sundays

Have i ever said how i hated Sundays? For some, Sunday is a great day for family gathering, fun with friends and everything else. But for me, i simply hate Sundays. I guess it’s just not my day and I always have mixed feelings about Sundays. Don’t know what happened in the past that resulted in me dreading Sundays, but i know for sure, i hate the loneliness of Sunday which no one can understand.
Sometimes on Sundays, i just have these bad/unhealthy thoughts. Don’t worry. It’s definitely not doing harm to people. But my brain just go blank on Sundays and there is nothing that i want to do. Time just pass like nothing and there’s just too much on my mind. Wonder if it’s too much thinking or just plain mind explosion on Sundays.
Look at life. Some says it should be treasured while some thinks that it is nothing. Some people can be very happy even though they have lots of family problems while some, are always gloomy even if they have the perfect life. I wonder what kind i am.
Have you ever regretted doing something? I bet you did. I mean, I regretted doing a lot of things. Being so childish in the past, so demanding, not understanding enough and all sorts of stuff. I mean, no one is perfect right? But i think i am the most imperfect one around.
So what if i am in university now? It’s nothing to be proud of. Look around, there are so many undergraduates and graduates around you. It’s not that hard to get into a university after all. So what if you get into university? It doesn’t mean that you are a very successful person right? How do you measure success anyway? Is owning the 5 Cs successful? Or having a big company such as Microsoft? I mean. These material gains can be measured easily but what about emotions within you?
I guess i am talking rubbish right now so ignore me. Be content with your life and i guess i am a pig brain afterall.

Five Days of holiday

I still can't believe it. Today is actually thursday! Which means I have an exam tomorrow. Arghz. I Actually thought that the holiday last for one week! But who knows, it actually starts on Sunday and ends on Thursday. What kind of holiday is this?? *hmmm?*
Tomorrow I will be having a exam on Real Estate Development and Investment Law. A little don't feel like studying but i guess i will study after my dinner! I'm going off to Ramen Ramen for dinner! hope the food there is good or else my tummy is suffering for nothing!
These few days have been quite boring cz i've been a sleepyhead and actually waking up close to 12pm! haha... i slept late too (so tat gives a bit of leeway ya?) Anyway, nothing much is going on. Went to Marina Square on Tuesday and i actually lost my way? haha... I was searching for a Esprit shop and i actually walked one big round without realising that it was just nearby. Arghz. So shopped around and crapped.
Lots of work due next week so i guess i have to bucked up! hahaz.. good luck to everyone else!

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Listening to this music from vivi's blog.. sounds pretty sad.. *haiz*.. Don't know why but it got me to feel sad.. Many things are going through my mind now.. not sure of what i should do next or what the future may brings.. Actually, feels like going to the ward the vivi is working in now to experience what it feels like to know, to see and to feel the feelings that the patient and his/her family goes through in the battle of life and death. The simple will to live, to battle against the terminal disease, together with the support and encouragement from the family, seem to be the most touching thing in life.
Of course, I'm not in that situation right now. But really feels sad, and probably out of place right now. Not knowing what is the next step, or should i continue being like this. I'm just simply sadden by the strong will of some to live on despite the pain they have to endure, and the will to die for some because of the problems that they are facing.
Wonder which one am i? which sort of person? To live or not to live? to continue or to stop? * of course, i am not commiting suicide here if some of u are taking it that way....*

Environment in Library

I seem to like the library more and more each time because its quite cofortable and everyone looks so studious here. It sort of puts me in the studying mode. Although still alone in the library this time, I seemed to discover a different thing and feels really in place here. I can focus on my work more in the library than at home. *amazing ah* I bet many of you will agree with me on this. Another 20minutes more and I have to head for the second lecture of the day, Genetics. I never seem to understand anything there but this time, I am going to try and understand what the professor is trying to say. After the lecture I have a practical session on DNA until 6! Not sure if there is going to be a tutorial after the practical session but let's hope not! I don't wanna go home at 7!!
Still got to finish a lab report here, but at least i made sense of what is going on finally! guess i will be able to finish everything tonight if I don't slack around! Yippee! I think i will stay in my room and do my work instead of facing the tv this time!

One more week of school

The first term is ending soon. After next week there will be a week of holiday!! Yippee!!!! THe few weeks of school have been tiring and they were quite fun although tiring.... but some lessons can be boring... Actually slept through some lessons and even skipped some.. *that can be how boring lectures are*..
Nothing much is going on in school.. met a few friends.. attend some lectures and also tuitorials.. oh ya! i bought a new printer as well.. guess how much it costs???.. heehee... it cost.. it cost... cost... cost... co.. st... 98bucks! heehee.. so cheap ya? Saw the student exchange programme carnival.. it looks pretty fun but not something that i want to attend though! I am so sleepy now.. tomorrow gotta climb climb hill..x_X.. so tiring..... *zZz*.. so Good Nite now!
ohya, nix's prelims are coming.. wonder what should i get him.....

Alone in the Library

wahaaa... so boring alone in the library.. guess i better do some work! hmmm... Ytd i stayed at home and never go work.. cz went to the doctor... *tummy problems* and its hurting again now!.. *Cries*.. I've been having tummy problems for quite some time... guess its gastric prob.
After seeing the doc, she gave me some medicine for a week and told me to go back if it doesn't cure. Then she will refer me to a professional. *arghz*.. Anyway, I went back to secondary school on the day before teachers day and it was great to meet up with all my friends again!! Class 2B was one of the best class i ever had, and the entire day proof it!... hahaz.. We had dinner together as a class at Fish & Co, and i guess we jus chilled around in Yoshinoya discussing our chalet plans!! Its gonna BE FUN!!! *yippee*... And of cz, we made quite a lot of prank calls disturbing other ppl... heehee.. very mean but we just couldn't help it.. Joel with his Hongkong Accent tried to disturb Jean, Mahadhir, Maureen and a few teachers! haha... pretty successful with Jean i guess.. czx she kept scolding swear words!... hahaz... Just hope the day of chalet will come soon and we can hang out as a class for one more time before the guys get into NS!!! yippee...