Afternn Tea

Sitting at a little corner on my own, sipping on hot swiss chocolate, enjoying a plate of potato salad and busy typing away on my blog. Just the type of life that i like. It's 12pm now, which by right should be lunch time, but i had too full a breakfast to eat something heavy. Had a lecture on Immunology this morning and i was half asleep. hahax. didn't manage to absorb much in so i guess i have to study eh?
This weekend is gonna be so monotonous, with me studying and flipping notes. Hah. How ironic when one is supposed to enjoy weekends right? oh well, at least now i am enjoying my lunch. Time to get back to my work and look at hotels for holiday again! =) one of my biggest interest in life right now. heh. motivation as well.

Awaken

Sudden realization that i've been living in my own dream world these two years. A talk with one of my labmates yesterday pulled me back into reality. I haven't been studying much and thus resulted in my current academic results. A sudden realization that i'm not as capable as the others and i would have to study much harder if i am to survive in this university. Everyone around me works hard and no doubt, are smart too. And what am i? Not smart, nor working hard enough. huh.
The sudden urge to end university life has been on my mind these few days. Yet, I know that if i jus ends it like that, it would be hard to find a decent job outside with burning questions from employers asking why i dropped out from school. Everything i've been yearning for in the future will be ruined by myself if i put an end to my university life now.
Yet, the stress and the utmost pressure is making me feel utterly depressed about university. who said that university life was gonna be easy? Whoever said this was definitely nuts. But i know, i must perservere. jia you shuqi!~