Food anione?

Talking about food, have you ever thought of the handling, packaging, etc processes? Just take a little stroll along those hawker centres and you will probably find alot of things that will make you feel disgusted.
I was eating my self-cooked noodles this morning and my mum was watching this television show about fat people trying to cut down weight through different methods such as exercising and plastic surgery. I am not talking about normal fat people, but those who cannot even walk and I do emphasize with them. However, watching this show during my lunch wasn't exactly appetizing. Looking at their body weight, the flappy skins after losing weight, etc did make me a little nauseous. All my appetite just went down the drain. not to mention that my cooking wasnt exactly fantastic either.
After this session, i had a lecture on food microbiology in class today. hah. i think that only make me lose more of my appetite. The prof showed pictures of organisms that may be on your hand anytime and its actually thousands of colonies of bacteria and fungi! ahhhhhh... and talk about how easily food can be spoilt, the process of slaughtering chickens and cows. I don't think my appetite will ever improve today.........
looking forward to my mum's handmade mashed potato... hope i will be able to eat somethign!

OuCh!

woke up this morning with a stiff neck. yikes. couldn't turn my head to the left. so i think i am to keep turning my entire body to the left if i want to look left for the rest of the day.
Other than that, morning was rather uneventful with lots of things i need to study etc. Feel that my life is rather empty... huhhhh....

Uncertainty

A wave of fear just overcame me. amino acids, keto acids, tyrosines, GABA, glutamine, glutamate.... these terms are driving me crazy. Been trying to memorize the different pathways and enzymes for the class test tml that is worth 20% of the module's grade. it's the second time i am taking this module, so i really wanna do well. but i am worried.
I don't know if i can take this anymore with stress piling up on other work as well. studying immunology was really hard as well. feel like tearing up all the books and just set fire on them. I dun even know what i am doing now. I feel totally out of place.
If not for nix, I will never be able to take anymore of this. thank you dear. for always being there.