west coast park & my rabbits

Earliest day!

I've 2 days where the lesson starts at 8am. (tues, fri). It is really tiring to try to wake up this early.. YaWnn.. And guess what. This is the first morning that i am ever so early to school!!! Reached school at around 730am. Haha... When i came into the lecture theatre, there was only 3 people? haha.. so i guess i am still not the first one to come to school. It's another ten more min to class and people are coming in really slowly. Guess nobody likes to wake up at 6 to come to school. YaWnnn...
CNY is approaching and i haven't exactly found any clothes that i would like for CNY. I've only got a top that looks like a dress and that's it. x_X i need shopping time. Anybody?

2nd week of school

It is already the second week of schooL! And it is only today that i realised that my term holidays are in tune with the CNY holidays. *argh* that is like not giving us any holidays!!! *OBJECTION!!!!!* hai but i guess i can do nothing about it. My lecturer is 15 min late for class today! -not good for a lecturer- I hope she finishes up fast so that I can go home soon! =) Although i don't really have much hope for that. =(

Went to fishing pond on saturday. It was terrible totally. x_X The uncle was scolding my brother for sitting on the sofa (which i really don't understand cz there wasn't any sign which says do not sit) and sacarstically scolded me for charging my laptop. x_X NO MORE FISHING POND! *ROARRRR*

Anyways, more pictures!

Me and dear at Sungei Buloh. =) pretty sight. saw a crocodile too.


Aint' this cute?? =)

updates

It's been almost 2 mths since i last update? Have been working alot lately, if not have been slacking at home or going out with friends. Damn tired now cz i woke up at 630 this morning for lecture. *YAWN*
Went to shanghai during the holidays with my family and some friends. It was an okay trip but nothin much about it. I bought my rabbits a new cage as a christmas gift! Really likes it alot. Apparently they became quite lazy after getting the new cage but I need to train them on where to pee and poo! It is getting quite irritating cleaning the cage.. *arGhhh* In any case, take a look at my baby rabbits!

tired and stressed

recently, my bf jus plucked a white hair out of my hair. this shows how stressed i am. haix. Tomorrow is my Cell biology exam and i really hope to do well in it. Actually, i hope to do great in it in order to pass the module. Somehow, i just have a bad feeling about it. -sad-
Really tired now. just wanna go to bed. haix. study study study

miserable

dun talk to me. totally miserable. right to the bottom of the ocean.

newborn babies

Ain't the babies cuteee? I know i have not uploaded for a long time. Lots of work to do but i am a little lazy lately. Haix. *must study hard* but aniwaes, these cute little babies were born on saturday, 4th november 2006. There are 5 of them, and i have already named one! The blackest inside is called blackie.. heee.. he is one of the more naughty one inside! When you try to touch him, he will attack you. haha.. all of them are really fat and bloated now.. Chocolate, my white rabbit, have done a good job in feeding them. Good girl!!!
But on the day that the babies were born, nixon's graddad passed away too. *haix*.. I hope the entire family will deal with it well.. *rest in peace*...
Time to go back to my studies now.. dun really know wat to write for the essay.. how how? can anyone give me any ideas?

schoolwork + work

The pile of work that is piling up my desk is driving me crazy. still have at leasdt about 4 projects to complete. x_X If only i have 4 of me around. Haha.. talking about that, anyone wanna clone themselves? It might be nice.. especially if you can actually control your clones. *hmmmmm*...
There haven't been much up lately. Its like school home school home kind of day. Ohya.... i got a new phone!! *happy happy* It was actually for free.. so i am happy.. heehee.. My uncle didnt know how to use the new phone, N73, so he gave it to me. *ain't i luckY?* I think this phone is quite nice, except for the limited number of space in the phone. So, i have to go buy a new mini SD card with more space. *anione wanna sponsor??*
Just another 15 more days to our anniversary.. what should i get? wonder how will the day be like.. *hope everything will go on great!* Anyway, i am losing my appetite for food lately. *sad*..
I wish i wish i wish... all problems will disappear!

busy busy

My holidays have been VERY busy... work + study.. and not much of play except on last saturday where i went out with my friends to pub.. Caren, NIc, Dan and Dear dear.. It wasn't that bad a night.. But now i have to get to study so i guess i can't update much!! Hopefully the busy period will be over by the end of exams in dec.. lol.. that's such a long way to go.. -sad- There's two pictures of me and caren, follow by a picture of the drink i had! forgot the name of it.. aniwae, it wasn't that nice.. YuCks..

Shinhwa Concert

Haven't been able to put up a decent post lately due to the tremendous amount of workload. *Right* Okay, i have been quite lazy and have been trying to catch up with school. Aniwaes, The shinhwa concert last last sunday was really nice! I went with vivi to the concert and ya, the guys were really funny, singing was great and dancing was terrific! I think Dongwan is the cutest and funniest inside.. heehee.. i think i am beginning to like him more than hyesung.. hmmmx... aniwaes, PIctures uppppp!
The first picture is me and Vivi when we just got into the indoor stadium... Not many ppl have arrived yet...

This picture is so not clear... but ya they are in white so its quite funny to see the figures...

More pictures of me and vivi. This is outside the indoor stadium after the concert.. A fruitful evening.. heehee...

Will post up more decent posts next time!!

pics

It's not that i have nothing to do right now, cz i actually have loads of work on my hand. But i am simply too lazy to continue right now cz i am veryyyy tireddd.. An interesting thing happened yesterday. I actually went to book tickets for the SHINHWA CONCERT. I don't know if it will be a big hit in singapore on sunday, but i am definitely happy that i am actually going! *I think i am a little crazily tired now* But aniwaes, my piggy banks is going to go to zero soon if i continue to splurge like that.. x_X.. Time to save up!
Just some random pictures. I guess i got really bored. This is the picture of me in beijing. I guess it doesn't look really cold does it? But i was freezing there totally!!!

Me and nixon in the Forbidden city..

And last but not least, my favourite picture of all times. My brother and sister fighting in the snow. hahaha... *evIL*

FishInG

Yesterday went fishing in a fishing pond near Kranji Reservoir. We went at around 5+pm, with 7 people on a 5-seater car? haha.. try to imagine how the people behind squeeze.. Nixon's brother, Jimmy came along too.. and it was really funny when they tried to squeeze in becz my mum accidentally moved her seat back although she wanted to move it to the front to create more space. Jimmy screamed immediately! I think it must have hurt.. *hmmm..* Anyway, i was the driver of the day and ya i had pretty much space for myself. Lol.
At the fishing pond, the guys went fishing and i was there walking around and just basically doing all sorts of tasks.. Wrapping food, disturbing people, trying to read my notes, learning to fish.. heehee.. *multi-task* We had a mini-bbq there, and i spent quite a bit of time bbq-ing! My fingers went numb when i finally sat down to eat. Must be due to the heat.
Then walked around again, sit with nix and jimmy, learn to cast a fishing rod.. Haha.. i guess i am really bad at casting lines.. x_X THen we went to play MunchKins! About 7 players and it was really fun.. heehee.. seeing how people build from scratch to almost winning and suddenly just lose everything because you decided to sabotage. Hee.. *oOpzx* But aniwaes, We went to bukit batok for supper at 2am. Me, Nix and Jimmy went to look for food and then nix suddenly mention prata. So the first thing that came to my mind was Tissue Prata!!! I started tugging his shirt in a girly manner and said i wanted tissue prata.. Haha.. Then later Jimmy said he will learn from me.. Lolz.. That was quite funny..
After supper, we went home at about 3am. Damn tired la! I tink i woke up close to 12 this morning.. heehee...

Contradictions

so what am i going to talk about? Contradictions. As i'm talking about this, my dear lecturer is talking about statistics in the front, contradicting himself. hee. Not to worry, he is good at statistics. However, he keeps going back on his word of letting us off and keeping us back. x_X. Let's see.
1. On the first day of the lecture, after 1hr of the lecture, he said the rest of the lecture is not impt and we could go off. After 1 second, he immediately said that his supervisor might scold and kept us back till 2 hours is done.
2. On the second lecture, he said he has to go at 5pm as he has to be at Science centre by 6pm. In the end, we left the lecture theatre at about 5.40?
3. And in today's lecture, he wanted to give us a break. Just 1 sec after he said that, he continued with the sentence "Then when are you guys going to come back?" and continued with his lecture. x_X
What a guy. I seriously don't know what is up his mind. so strangeeeee....

pictures

Hee Linching. Look, i am nice enough by putting up pictures of you with eyes OPENED.. *joking*.. It took me some time to upload this cz the thing doesn't seem to be working well.. x_X... by the way, for the second photo, the birthday gal is the one on the left (Liana), the centre one is Lin Ching and the one of the right is me!

outing

Phew blog.. This week has been quite hectic.. Couldn't catch up much on my sleep! On sunday, i went out with my ISS friends, Liana and Lin Ching. It was liana's bdae!~ Happy birthday gal! So we bought her a BIG baby Sylvester and a yummmmmmy chocolate cake! Oh ya.. we took neoprints too! Had our lunch at Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao. (such a long namee..) But aniwaes, the people there were real nice. I was wrong about them being mean. hee. Cz i thought we shouldn't eat the cake at the restaurant as it was not very nice to the people there, but the people there actually asked us if we wanted plates and forks! haha.. i guess there are nice people after all.. Took some neoprints at the arcade.. guess it was quite cheap. Lol. Just that didn't have enough time to do all the designing and choosing stuff. The entire process was quite hilarious actually. Did i meantion that linching was half asleep during the entire process? Heez..I will upload pics another time! Cz the thing doesn't seem to be working.. -pouts- Anyways, the D&D pictures will also be uploaded! Look forward to a group of babarians on screen k!

Chocolate and Hazel

This is a picture of my fav chocolate and hazel when they were small.. cutieeee..

But look at chocolate when she's older.. x_X.. so much bigger ya? The ears are much longer too...

But my cute little dwarf rabbit is still as small.. jus a little bigger that's all.

webcast

If you are wondering what webcast is, it is just an excuse for students not to attend 8 o'clock lessons in the morning and dress up in their pyjasmas at home, switch on their laptop and looked at the screen featuring their fav lecturer in action. Yes, it actually means that we don't have to attend lectures if we don't want to because it will all be recorded down and we can just look at them anytime we like.
So, as a good student, i am in a lecture theatre now. Although i am sleeping through the lecture, I am still AT LEAST in the class. x_X.. So i guess i will go home and look at my screen later. *sobx* i feel like such a slacker.
It's our break time now. THe in between the lecture break. Lots of people talking away and I'm just typing away. Lots of things for me to do this weekend. Watching at leasdt 3 webcasts, reading up my notes, reading the readings for lectures, preparing myself for tutorials (which is still some time away), preparing myself for the once in a year D&D, as well as slacking away. haha.
Oopzx, lecture starting again. TIME TO GO......

-sneeze-

-SNeeEzExXXx-
feeling a little sick now.. throat pain and nose was running a little.. *Yawnnnnn* i think i am jus too tired. I had two lessons today and i could only understood half of it? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... *YaWn*..
I'm going to the D&D next week, hope it will be fun.. although i kinda feel a little left out though.. *haix*.. miss my dear dear now.. I hope he will feel better soon..

sickx

My bf's sick. He had diarrhea this morning and also vomitted quite alot. Came down with high fever by noon time. soooooooooo poor thing. *sobx* So today went over to see him, and "took care" of him lo. Helped him to change towels now and then, as well as do some of my work. He was sleeping the entire time, although i think he is more like half asleep la. I was kinda disturbing him. lol.
We went to visit a doctor later on in the evening, and it took us some time before we finally found one that's available. And guess what? The doctor thinks he is faking it so that he doesn't need to go back to camp. HEY! HE'S REALLY SICK OK!!! -angry- But he gave the mc aniwaes. Then went back, he ate some food and took med. I went home after that and tada, i am here updating.
Tomorrow's the first day of the second year. And i really don't wanna go to school!!! -pouts- But i'm lucky that I've only got 2 lessons tomorrow. Time to prepare for classes tomorrow!!

miscommunication

miscommunication
I was watching tv at the fishing pond yesterday when the programme about miscommunication starts showing. Couples were quarreling because they were unable to understand each other, often resulting in divorces. And in my case, of course miscommunication does occur. I guess it really depends on how you solve it. Luckily for me, nixon was quite understanding and even though i kept mumbling rubbish he seems to accept it. x_X
Felt really sad this morning cause i thought i wouldn't be able to go shopping today. He had to meet up with his friends and as for me, I really thought I had to stay at home and rot with my darling rabbits. (-.-)" So i started "screaming" at him for all sorts of things. cause i was really looking forward to going out today with him since it was probably about a few months since we last really went out.
Although there's still friday and saturday, i still felt upset. But anyways, I am still going out today! yeah for me! Going to look for aishah later to get some stuff and look at some pretty shoes.. haha.. miss shopping life... and hopefully to get some stuff for my family as well..

*SCREAMMMM*

SHINHWA FANS.. *SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMM*!!! SHINHWA IS COMING TO SINGAPORE TO PERFORM!!! IT'S A LONG TIME SINCE THE FIRST TIME THEY CAME TWO YEARS AGO AND ONLY PERFORMED ONE SONG!!! So anyone wanna come with me?! heehee.. i am gonna enjoy it!!!!!!!
haha.. i guess that's the only update for the day. hee.. cz that's the best news i recieved so far today.. *smilez*...
Although happy happy, hope my bf is doing well in tekong.. *pouts*.. how i wish can tell him that now.. I tink he will be happy for me too.. heehee.. But now, really hope that everything is fine there and hope tonight dun rainx....

Picturesssssss

The first picture is the picture of me and Candice, one of my fellow colleagues who entered Esprit at almost the same time as me.. =).. She's a very nice talkative girl.. haha.. =) One tat helps me through the day!

This is Aishah, one of my ex-colleagues. Very sweet and cute girl!

Of course, how could i miss my manager. She look like she's in her twenties rite! Wonder how she managed to keep herself look so youthful!!!!

Ha, One group picture of all the staff of ESprit at JPT!!! Cheers!!!!

Anyways, today never do anything much. Just clean the house, hang the clothes, bath the rabbits and keep my closet cleannnnnnnn... Looks like i have lots of clothes to clearrrr........ And so much tat i have not wore for ages, as well as lots of clothes to actually iron.. hmmmx. lots of work to do!!! =).. As for now, i think i better get back to my stuff.......Hope my mum is fine... She jus had a mini operation. sounded a litle weak..*sadx*

Yiippeeeeee!

ooOhoo.. on 6th July 2006, I've officially passed my DRIVING TEST! haha.. so now i can jus drive about on my own... *yiippee* Anyway, i was sooooooo stressed on the day of my test. When i woke up in the morning, the rain was dark with lots of chicken and cows falling down the sky. I was thinking... *damn.. its gonna be a bad day...*.. Then i had my warm-up driving lesson before the test. The rain became a drizzle, which i thought was great cz it might jus stop before the actual test... but who knows, it started pouring the moment my test started... *!&#(%^)!*$)* and my tester was freaking fierce!!!!!!! He kept telling me to go faster, if not he would tell me to cut into other ppl's path and stuff like that. x_X... BUT LUCKILY, he didn't get too many chances in minusing off my points.. so, I PASSED! heehee.. *Big cheesy smile*..
Anyway, lately have been working and stuff, so not much things to update.. Will post up pictures of my gathering with colleagues another time!

updates

Woooooo.. been tied up at work lately, but everything is great so far! Have i said recently i got a new phone? hee.. Sony Ericsson W810i. Hee the black pretty phone. Wanted W800 but everyone is holding that so decided on the other phone.. heehee.. I had some trouble deciding between N80 and W810i when i went to the M1shop with nixon and his parents. heehee.. Anyway, i got a new phone! yay!!..

Last saturday went fishing with family, nixon and his brother! ha it was a really great day.. *big big smile* nixon and his brother were fishing while i was running around with xinjie(kid) and feeding koi, catching prawn and stuff like that.. haha.. tired tired ah... Nixon caught a big fish rite at the start! heehee it weighed about 3+kg.. hehee.. but others had to help catch the fish cz it was too heavy..

Lately have been resting quite well.. heehee.. but next few days gotta work quite a lot.. hope can earn more money!! heehee..

back!

boohoO! i am back from the Berkelah trip.. *i tink it is spelt like tat..*.. but aniwaes, it was a great trip, knew some interesting ppl and great sceneries!

We took the bus to JB, then to Kuantan and took cab to where we were supposed to go to. hee.. to see waterfall!..



That was the first picture at the bottom of the mountain.. it was a pretty harsh trip up there i guess.. with all our packages and stuff to get to the campsite. aniwaes, i will not talk much about the trip here.. too tired.. will put up more pictures nxt time.. too tired...

going to Berkelah

going to Berkelah in an hour's time! going for a hiking trip... =) let's hope everything will go well.. It's in Malaysia and heard there are nice sceneries! So will bring back photos and put them up! yippeeeee...

TIME TO GO!!!

tag tag tag

ahhhhhhh tagged by Luis.. x_X.. but aniwaes, i am bored so it is okay. Hahaz.. =) so here goes....

if you have been tagged, you are to come up with seven qualities of your perfect lover. do specify the gender. then, list down and tag another seven bloggers on their pages. if you've been tagged before, you need not do this again.

Perfect Love: Male (duh.. i am a normal girl, of course look for male la.. or else female meh?)
7 Ideal Qualities of perfect lover
1. patient and caring
2. homely person
3. love and dote on me LOTS
4. can stand my nonsense
5. cook GREAT FOOD
6. love to play
7. most impt is to be understanding

hmmm.. are my targets too high? i haven't add stuff like must be smart and sporty, good looking, rich and bla bla bla.. haha.. cz those kind will never exist la.. thatwill be in a woman's dreamland.. lol.. but still, i am VERY HAPPY cz i already met my perfect partner.. heeeeeeee.. *big cheesy smile*..
now.. i gotta go tag 7 other ppl.. who should i tag.... -hmmmm-

exams over..

yippee.. we are done with exams.. =).. its about a week since exams are over and i have been working for tow days so far.. heez.. gotta work hard and earn more money so i can buy more stuff.. *gosh i am so spendthrift*.. i better start saving up ah...

my poor dear dear is sick and sleeping in the sickbay.. poor thing... hope he will recover soon... aniwaes, he got into ntu! -happy-

Work has been really tough lately.. hmmm place is always busy and messy... lots of clearing up and stuff.. sadxxx ah.. hope this sat will work till 6 so i can go look for nix... yuppp..

Yesterday went for dinner with iss friends.. hmmm.. thai food.. ok la.. the food wasn't too bad.. then went to have a drink with lin ching and ermi. don't worry, we didn't take any alcoholic drinks *good girls*.. haha..

FST2201 exam...

todAY Had my 4th exam paper. FST2201:Introduction to Human Nutrition. I think it was really crappy. *arghz* i messed up all my vitaminssssss... this is so bad.. i forgot which disease belonged to which vitamin and ya basically i think i really screwed up this paper. *haiz*

The other exam papers didn't really went that well either. English, Nation-Building and Cosmetics & Perfumes. They were sorta ok, but not very well either.. i guess this time i have to pray very hard to get a good gradee... or shld i say many good grades.. haix.. hope my overall grade will not be pulled down further although i can't help feeling pessimistic.. *sobx*..

Tml no papers.. *yeahhh*.. but thurs i got biodiversity and thursday got statistics. Gotta work hard! At least strive for good grades for theseeee.. *yupppp*...

yes mum

"yes mum".. choikwun was instructing me to eat healthily ever since she heard me eating KFC and Swensens for lunch.. yuppp u heard it right.. swensens and kfc.. Had a tummy upset yesterday.. running to toilet several times in a day. i bet you can guess what happened. >.<"..

Took a few medicines and are still on drugs cz my tummy is not exactly feeling too much better so yeah.. lost my appetite for most of the food yet i seem to crave for buns... hhmmmmmmm... aniwaes, had my HY2229:Nation-building exam today and i think i crapped through the entire exam? haha.. i think i didn't really get the question and sorta writing my own essay with my own question kinda thing.. Had PR2202:Perfumes and Cosmetics last friday and i think it was a disaster. x_X. then the day before had ES1301: ENglish for Academic Purposes. It was a little disasterous.. but i guess shld be still okkkkk...

Tml will be having my nutrition exam! i think i am gonna go crazyyy... haha.. last night i dreamt about my dad buying W800i for me, w550 for my bro and another SE 3G phone for himself.. haha i think i must be crazy... the other nite i dreamt of my bf buying the same phone for me.. lol.. but... my bf is really gonna buy the w800i phone.. *yiippeee*.. phone phone phoneeeeeee...

-back to studies-

princess of the day

oOooooooo.. heehee.. i feel like such a slowpoke. This picture was actually taken in february, in one of my outings with my iss friends. yuppp.. they are a bunch of great ppl.. one more outing coming up! to celebrate boo's bdae.. which was almost a month ago.. so sorry. everyone is so busyy... hmm.. i dun seem to see LC online nowadays.. wonder where did she go.

I've been updating quite frequently, and i bet you can guess why. *i am BORED*.. yet i need to study.. how ironic is that? Anyways, its raining sheep and cows now. lol.. its much heavier than cats and dogs! Lately, it has been pouring almosdt every single afternn.. I dun remember any day that the afternn has not rained.. hmmmm.. Yesterday went for a facial and OUCH.. It hurts alot but at least my face is much cleaner now.. *happy happy*..

I think i better go back to my study instead of playing around.. yup... -big smile-

no mood to study

This picture i borrowed from vivi. Thanks ah! hee.. i still haven't ask her for permission yet... hope you wun mind girl..

Yesterday's outing was sorta success? haha.. we went for lunch at Cafe Cartel and it was jack's treat. i was only joking when i told him that he has to treat us to lunch as he was late. oh well.. i guess he took it seriously.. Talked alot about BISS and stuff. Hmmm... then we went to take neoprint, as u can see there.. haha. the one who called himself a tiancai is actually a dummy! =X.. joking jack! Anyways, we went to play pool after that and vivi you are good! hee.. I guess i was really lucky to have won jack.. lol.. it was funny.. after which we went home cz i needa study.. sobx.. thanks vivi for accompanying me on the train triP! heehee i knew u were really really bored.. but that's not the main point. It rained really heavily on the way home. i wanted to take the bus all the way till it finishes its loop so that i dun have to cross the road. but realised that its door was sorta spoilt so decided to get off the bus early instead.

Ohya, it was so funny on the bus! was sitting next to the window and there was another next to the bus. As it was raining heavily and lots of water on the floor, the bus driver drove so fast that the water splashed all over the car, especially the windscreen.. it was hilarious. poor car. but it was an enjoyment to watch that. lol.

Now i am really really bored and dun have the mood to study. argh. that's really bad. guess i better try to at least sorta study!!!

sadx

nix jus went back to tekong just now. met him ytd and this morning. i guess he was too tired plus the sore throat, that's why he didn't talk so much. -sadx- next week is the start of the exams. i have to buck up and study le. sobx.

feel kinda lost right now. what am i doing. why am i doing all these. haix. reality will never be the same as dreams. i wish. i wish. that i can smile nw. but somehow, i dun have the energy to smile, yet all the energy to frown. shuqi ah shuqi. its time to stop thinking about rubbish and go study. haix.

went to one of my bestest friends' blog just nw. so sad to hear her story. vivi must buck up k? everything will be fine. if u need someone to go out with, just tell me after 2 wks! cz nw i really needa prepare for exams. hope tml our outing will cheer you up. you must buck up oh.

nix said that after booking out next wk, he won't be able to book out for 2 wks. got some camp which is 7 days in the forest. i hope everything will go well for him. can't help feeling a little worried. won't be able to contact him for 7 whole days, and he wun come out on the weekend i finish my exams. sadx. i am going to work straight after exams. i guess that will take my mind off things.

now, i better go study. sobx.

hee

Today was my LAST tutorial and lecture. SO HAPPY.. haha.. but i fell asleep halfway through my last lecture, which was biodiversity. too tired. But in tutorial i was relatively awake though i dunno why. After that i went to science library to print the statistical tables so i can actually practise the past year exam papers! Then i went with charissa to Arts Faculty to collect our SS papers. We went to drink longan and barley first, and talked about everything under the sun. haha.. then saw choikwun, went up to collect our papers but the papers are not there yet.. gosh i tink when Kevin Khoo said the papers will be ready by 1pm, he seriously meant 1pm. >.<" So me and charissa sat in the history dept to talk again while choikwun went for her lunch. talk talk talk until 1240? then we went to collect papers. Know someone new again, called benjamin. He's charissa's tutorial classmate. I got C+ for my ss paper. *sadz*.. but i guess i have to work realllllllllly hard in the final so that i can score a B in the module. *let's hope i can at least score a B*...
Then went to bank with mum with tons of coins.. so heavy.. lucky i didn't have to bring them to the bank from home. lol. my mum and my sister nearly went bonkers trying to carry so much coins for banking in. Then the person began explaining some investments that they are having... and it took an hour plus? sat there like stone.. haha..
THen went to NTUC and popular to buy stuff.. came home, fell asleep once again and then my rabbits began crawling all over me.. ><".. had dinner and was watching tv.. *i should be studying*... played with my rabbits again and then tada.. i am here blogging.. lol.. saw my biodiversity results just now. was relatively happy with them. for the 6 "test" papers or should i say quiz, i scored between B- to A+.. so ok la.. happy happy... now i better go study..*tml nix is coming out.. yeahhhhhhh*

office politics

bleh.. i hate office politics.. *roar*.. I never knew things can be that bad.. *RRRRRRRRRRR* but i will not explain things here...
Every SINGLE thing went wrong yesterday... i was supposed to sleep in, then study my biodiversity and then go work. BUT BUT BUT... I had to wake up early to go to my grandparents house, have a "debate" over how i am going to go to work and having MORE problems at work. *rrr*... ohya.. and my bf told me that.......... that......... *not we breaking up*.. but.. my bunnies are both female.. *sobx*.. no next generation... sobx sobx..
hee.. but the roses make me happy... lalala...
Yesterday i had a weird dream but interesting.. heee... my bf bought my dream phone for me! haha... ok i tink i am crazy...... *yawnnnnnnnn*

WW3

Yesterday. A tragic happened. A battle between Curry Rice and Mocha Freeze occurred in my stomach. I was throwing up in the toilet for at least 5 times? but nothing was coming out. Tummy was spinning like nobody's business and I felt dizzy. Finally, i couldn't stand it. Dad picked me up from school and sent me home. Went to the doctor straight away. Doc Yeo said i had world war 3 in my tummy. The battle was fierce. 6 different kinds of medicine was given to me. 3 of which i have to complete the course.
After i had my med at about 6, i had my dinner and continued with my med again which have to be eaten after dinner. I tried to watch tv for a while, but i immediately dozed off on the sofa. I wasn't feeling tired! but it was the medicine that was working its way through me. ><" i felt like a jelly and went to bed straight away.
Now.. i am not allowed to eat chilli, milk or stuff like tat.. i hope it is only for a few days.. hee... cz i dun want to miss my fav yogurt freeze..

sleepy

oOoooooo.... -zzzzzz- now i am in my Nation-building lecture. and if you are wondering what it is, i will tell ya! it is a totally mind-swirling subject cz you will go crazy just trying to write all the notes down. yupppp.. that's what history is all about....
Last two days have been tiring.. but i dunno with what. hee.. Let's @@.. Friday i went to Suntec Convention Centre with nixon, and we had lots of food. haha.. i think we bought more stuff to bring home.. *sticks tongue out*. and saw my cousin, jack there... yupp that crazy pig was there too.. *oopz*...
Then saturday i went to temple.. and walked around bugis.. bought a pair of slippers.. heehee.. after that was to home! relaxed, watch tv, and did some work.. hee.. and i played mahjong for my mum! won lots of money... she never give me ani.. gosh.. hee.. then i went over to my cousin's hse to play munchkin! stayed overnite there.. haha...
Next day.. working... heehee.. 2-6.. and i was so dead tired that i couldn't keep myself focused.. ARGHHHHHH.... but i managed to clinch a few deals.. that means more money in pocket! hee... then went home to do my work until 12... 6+ woke up... 8+ had my english presentation which sorta went ok.., haha.. but i guess i stumped the whole class with what a modifer is... ohb welllllllllllll.....

stats mid-term

waaaaaaaaaa.. i think it was almost a disaster... ><".. My statistics mid-term.. Oh well, just have myself to blame czx i wasn't working hard enough! just like xiaoqian said, i should work harder!!it mainly means that i have to start doing my tutorials.. heehee.. right xiaoqian? Went through the given answers just now, and realised i got half my mcqs wrong and one of my problem sums wrong. yupp.. so.. let me do the simple maths.. highest mark that i can get is = 4 x 5 + 5 x 3 = 35. and that is out of... 60.. yupp.. does that mean just pass? heeheez.. i dunno.. jus pray hard i guess.. heehee.. *evil*..
Anyway, had a big accident before stats.. I was making my way down from FST2201 class. then i went *thump thump thump thump* and landed right on my butt on the bottom of the stairs.. omg.. i was so embarassed.. ><".. not to mention that my butt hurts.. and that's the beginning of me feeling something is definitely going to go wrng in my exam.. x_X...
Tomorrow is LSM1103 prac.. let's hope everything will go just well.. i think i better go sleep and wake up tml morning to study or something? hee..

-In Class-

Whooooo... now i am in my PR2202: Cosmetics and Perfumes lecture.. *so sian* charissa is not coming to class today so i will just rot in the lecture hall and see what happens later.. haha.. i might jus run away.. *who knows*.. very hard to see me guai guai sit in the lecture hall.. hmmm.. gotta start studying now... i feel like such a BUM... ><"... lots of work to do.. exams coming in a month's time and i still dunno what's happening in class.. *this is deadly*..
So now i REALLY gotta plan out my time-table so that i will be able to catch up with my studies.. jusdt heard from my bf that my bunnies ran out of their cage again!!! this is exasperating... ><"... Chocolate guai guai went to my bf later on.. but hazel is nowhere to be found.. that boy is so hard to catch.. *haiya*..... wonder what will happen when he comes to my house.. maybe my mum will catch him to cook rabbit soup ah.. lol... *joking la*.. my mum loves rabbits as well...
Was late to class this morning. Had my english in the morning and it was hilarious.. ><"... i threw double ones in a game!!!! ><" so unlucky today ehhhhhhhhhhh..... *hai*.. i guess i must work harder next time!!!
When i went out of home this morning and was waiting for the bus, i started thinking of how much i hated to wear school uniform in the past and wanted to wear home clothes to school.. now, i am thinking why we dun have a uniform in uni.. ><"... its always troublesome to think of clothes to wear to school everyday...

sadx

Feel so sadxxxxxxxxxx... *SoBx* Xiaoqian messaged me my results for Introduction to Human Nutrition test. I got 35/50 for the test.. It was quite good, i mean, considering that i actually PASSED the paper by 10 marks. BUT... the average score was 42.8marks, and that means I've done really bad... *sobxXxX*.. ok, it can't be blame i guess. This is because I wasn't studying hard. So I have to study harder!! *yuppp shuqi jia you!!*
Yesterday was the release of the A'Levels results. It was quite good, and i really hope nix will get into NUS! haha.. which he doesn't seem willing cz i pester him too much. lol.. think he will opt for NTU instead.. come on.. NUS IS NOT A BAD CHOICE!!! haha... *big smile*

1st day of school after a wk of holiday!

Had my test yesterday and i think it went OKAY... ><".. not really fantastic cz i didn't study... *ShruggzxX* but i had a great day yesterdaY! Let's @@... Had English in the morning which wasn't exactly great but it was good. Then i had Perfumes and Cosmetics lecture where the lecturer kept being biased towards NUS students.. haha.. its actually funny.. but shouldn't be posted here.. *a little too radical*.. Yupp.. Had lunch with Charissa, which was mixed rice with curry! i guess both of us really like it alot.. haha.. aniwaes, during stats lecture, Libby gave me a box of cookies.. IT'S GREAT GAL! very nice cookies.. heehee.. then shuyi gave me a card with wire-bookmark.. It's sooooo pretty.. thank you shuyi!! And Chunzhen, choikwun and Xiaoqian gave me a chocolatey cake! Thank you guys!! I love CHOCOLATES.. haha.. =).. really thanks alot.. *big smile*..
Thanks to lots of you who remembered my birthday too.. Deariee(who brought me out shopping) , Desmond who wished quite late but still, thank u!! then there's LinChing, Vivien, Lekteng ( thank you for ur bdae card!! its lovely..), caren, Ermi, Luis (haha yup both of us are officially 1 year older!) and more... thank you guys!!! heehee.. *big cheesy smile*

Birthday

Turned a year older. Everyone said i am getting older. So i am officially 19 now. any comments? Really wish time can stop now cz i really really don't wish to grow any older.. *Sobx* But apparently that is not going to happen and i have a big crisis in front of me now. *sadx* Tml is my Introduction to Human Nutrition exam and i am not in the least prepared for it. Everything that i am reading just came right out of my brain. Nothing is absorbed.
Must be wondering how i spent my birthday eh? Everything was fine in the morning and afternn until i came home. Had Lunch at Marina Square with my family at this restaurant called Pariss something. Yup. Great food! I think i almost tried everything there. *oopz* pig yeah.. The thing i had most was my favourite chocolate. haha.. chocolate fountain. Too bad there's no apple or strawberry for me to dip the chocolate with. x_X.. But yeah.. ate alot.. i really mean ALOT.. i think of the 5 of us there, i ate the most. not to mention my sis of course.
Spent the whole day with my bf yesterday. I think it is becoming a tradition. Last year, he also spent the whole day shopping with me before my birthday. haha. Yupp. So i was at Marina Square (again) and Suntec City. Lots of sales going on! haha.. that is sooooooo good. yup.. just suits me. Everything was paid by him ytd.. *so paiseh*.. Had dinner at Tony Roma's.. Ribs.. ahhh... i think both of us went crazy cz it was far too much food for two of us. haha.. anyhow order. ><"... We bought some clothes and cosmetics stuff. And bought things for my fav bunnies of cz. haha.. they are becoming more and more sticky le. When we first got them, they were trying to run away from us all the time. And yesterday, when i went to clean their cage and let them out, they were running around me. so cute. And when i walked to one side, they came along and stood on their hind legs, with their front paws on my legs. Kawaii.. yupp.. love them more and more. heehee. But they are getting so much fatter.. =.=".. haha.. must put them on diet.. *training time!*
Now i feel so much better. haha.. now i can go back to study!

Mid term holidays

It's been such an UNFRUITFUL mid-term holidays.. x_X.. My holidays started last week and it ends on Sunday. Basically, i was almost rotting the entire time at home, not including those that i went out with my friends, which was only 1 day.
On monday, I was trying to do my diet analysis project which was making me so mad because the stupid internet analysis wouldn't work.. *ARGH* and it took me the entire day to actually key in one day of the food and activity that i've recorded. ANd i have another two more days to go, not including the typing up of the project and stuff. x_X..
Tuesday. I think i went for my driving lesson. Can't really remember. But driving lesson is seriously the BEST part. haha.. i think the instructor got heart attack because of me. Driving in the circuit, yet i DROVE FAST. and i was supposed to do parking SLOWLY. haha.. so ya, basically i couldn't park properly. but i will work on it!
Wednesday. Had a project meeting with my mates in the school. Waaaa... now have to write another essay not including other projects... *STRESSED*.. and after that, i had another driving lesson. Learnt more parking and also the crank course. Fun! haha.. went round and round and round. oh ya, did i mention that i saw mark lee and the other actors such as ..*ermm dunno how to spell their name*.. but aniwaes, they were at the driving centre doing their show. They look pretty erm... proud?.. x_X.. sticking their hands on their waist all the time. No pretty actress there. haha.. That was what the instructor was complaining about. heez..
Thursday. another driving lesson. and went to IMM for some grocery shopping with mum. And also, booked my driving test date!! yiippee.. finally. But it is in july.. so far away ya?.. ahah.. and because of that driving test date, i am going broke. didn't know it costs 150 to book a test date. x_X.. hope i can pass!!! *prays hard*.. actually, should work hard!
Friday. that's today! spent the entire morning having breakfast with mum and grandfather. Ate TIssue Prata. hmm.. its not exactly good. x_X.. But aniwaes, spent half the afternn trying to print all my work. arghhhhh its sooooo annoying!!!! and after that, i have work at 5.. yuppp.. so i have to rush!!!

Mid-term Holidays

It's been such an UNFRUITFUL mid-term holidays.. x_X.. My holidays started last week and it ends on Sunday. Basically, i was almost rotting the entire time at home, not including those that i went out with my friends, which was only 1 day.
On monday, I was trying to do my diet analysis project which was making me so mad because the stupid internet analysis wouldn't work.. *ARGH* and it took me the entire day to actually key in one day of the food and activity that i've recorded. ANd i have another two more days to go, not including the typing up of the project and stuff. x_X..
Tuesday. I think i went for my driving lesson. Can't really remember. But driving lesson is seriously the BEST part. haha.. i think the instructor got heart attack because of me. Driving in the circuit, yet i DROVE FAST. and i was supposed to do parking SLOWLY. haha.. so ya, basically i couldn't park properly. but i will work on it!
Wednesday. Had a project meeting with my mates in the school. Waaaa... now have to write another essay not including other projects... *STRESSED*.. and after that, i had another driving lesson. Learnt more parking and also the crank course. Fun! haha.. went round and round and round. oh ya, did i mention that i saw mark lee and the other actors such as ..*ermm dunno how to spell their name*.. but aniwaes, they were at the driving centre doing their show. They look pretty erm... proud?.. x_X.. sticking their hands on their waist all the time. No pretty actress there. haha.. That was what the instructor was complaining about. heez..
Thursday. another driving lesson. and went to IMM for some grocery shopping with mum. And also, booked my driving test date!! yiippee.. finally. But it is in july.. so far away ya?.. ahah.. and because of that driving test date, i am going broke. didn't know it costs 150 to book a test date. x_X.. hope i can pass!!! *prays hard*.. actually, should work hard!
Friday. that's today! spent the entire morning having breakfast with mum and grandfather. Ate TIssue Prata. hmm.. its not exactly good. x_X.. But aniwaes, spent half the afternn trying to print all my work. arghhhhh its sooooo annoying!!!! and after that, i have work at 5.. yuppp.. so i have to rush!!!

Settler's Cafe

Settlers' Cafe
Had a really great time there with Ermi, Lin Ching and Boo. IT was really fun except the first part when we played Apple to Apple.. hmmm.. that game was a little weird. Oh well, then Boo introduced this game called Munchkins. IT WAS GREAT! haha.. i think we know what to get her for her bdae which is coming up! haha.. MunchkinS! then we can plAy again on her bdae! *Killing two birds with one stone*.. lol.. joking.. aniwaes, before we went to Settlers' Cafe, Me and LC went to watch I NOT STUPID TOO. OH MY GOD... the show made me sobbed so much... ><"... my eyes were red when i came out... *haiya*.. there are two kids sitting nxt to me but they didn't seemed to be sobbing or crying at all.. they just continued to eat their popcorns.. ><" so un-sympathetic.
Ermi got a tiara for me. IT is soooooooo cute.. haha.... the only prob is that it wouldn't stay on my head.. ><"... But it was really pretty.. thank you ermi! And Boo and LC got me a bag.. haha.. it is really pretty.. thank you gals! But now i have to think of where i am gonna bring that bag to....... *hmmmm*....
I think that Settlers' Cafe is a great place and i think i might go there more often next time! haha.. and enjoy the different types of games there.. THey have really interesting names for the games.. I think one was I'm the Boss, the other was some pig game.. haha...
Ohya, ppl.. please visit this webby ya.. haha.. thank you!!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=cararae

My Bunnies

CUTE BUNNIESSSSSSSSSSSSS

This is Chocolate, the normal albino rabbit. She doesn't like to take pictures apparently.. haha.. she won't even post for me!!

A joint picture of the two sweetiee... cute rite?..

My Chocolate and Hazel posting for me.. aren't theyyyy cute? Yup and the food in front of them is apple.. Not exactly their fav. food actually.. haha..

This is the cutie Hazel.. he loved to post when i was taking pictures of him! Got other pics of him lying on the floor..... cutieeeee...

Valentines Day

V. Day just passed by. Celebrated V. Day in advance this year. We went out on friday, to orchard (which i believe to be many couples' fav spot???) Anyways, we had our lunch at NYDC which was sooooo filling! haha.. and took neoprints. I recieved a ring from nix which is absolutely lovely, and then we went to chinatown for me to get rabbits for hiM! Got a white normal rabbit, named it chocolate and a Dwarf rabbit named Hazel. They are sooooooooo cute!! except the fact that they poo everywhere and also!!!! they have so much poo!!!!!! haha but nevertheless, they are gorgeous. I will post a pic of them the next time!
Ytd, which was V Day, i had to work...... ><".. from 12 to 6.. But it was ok. tried on clothes and i bought a top! haha.. i am quite spendthrift.. ><" this is a bad habit which I MUST CHANGE! Then went home for dinner. It was supposed to be my sis's turn to wash the dishes today!!! DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN... and my mum made me do it.. she's biased!!! *SOBX* But my dad dotes on me and stood up for me. haha.. He scolded my sis. But i guess i was too emotional cz i wouldn't talk to them after that. Then my dad and mum went out to get my mum's jewellry changed. Oh ya, dad bought her one whole set of jewellry which my mum wanted for a long time! lovely dad ya? haha... and i guess its becoz of me throwing my tantrum over the "dish-washing" problem, my dad bought me a gold bracelet! ><" i feel so bad now... so childish...

Xin Nian Kuai Le!

Today is the fifth day of chinese new year! Another official 10 days before the gambling stops.. lol... Yupp so hope i can recoup my losses before the new year ends! New year wasn't that bad at FIRST.. haha.. i won money on the first two days.. which was quite a lot.. hmmm.. then on the third day where i had gathering with my friends... that's when i start losing.... hmmm.. lost to jack, nic and ks! to both my cousin!!!!!!!! waaaaaa.... *sobs*... nevermind.. as long as there was laughter.. heheee.. i was not the onli person who lost anyway.. hah.. caren and lekteng lost too..
Visiting around was great, buttttttttt... too much food!! We had lunch at caren's hse ard 1, which was noodles and suan pan zi.. then 4 we had another meal at evon's hse.. that was the fun part cz we played games and whoever loses has to eat.. haha.. ks ended up eating the most since he was so devilish! And ard 7, it was dinner at my house! haha by then we can't eat anymore.. *rubs tummy*..
But i still love the chicken wings that mum makes... its greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!!!! sweet sauce.. ahh.. i love it...

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year to all the people i know and those i dunno. I doubt i will be able to post anything during the first two days of chinese new year since i will be going around and visiting. =)... Feel so sleepy right now.. Had my reunion dinner last night and yup good food.. haha... Now i am watching this show called "Pin Chiong Gui Gong zi".. Poor rich boy? haha.. its such a stupid show...
School lately have been boring.. but i realised that i have so much homework to do!!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaa.... haha.. so i have to actually start doing my homework now...

A fruitful day

A Fruitful Day

As my topic suggests, today has been a very fruitful day for me in school. Firstly, I had English lesson in the morning which taught me more about writing an essay. It is actually quite easy and simple points actually make an essay good instead of using complicated words.
Secondly, I had my Cosmetics lecture which was really fun! I learned about aloe vera and its uses, especially about the use of aloe vera in creams. In moisturizing Cream, the aloe vera in the cream is not enough to help you protect your face. If the manufacturers are to put enough aloe vera to be good for the skin, it will send the price of the product soaring to the sky! Thus it is more advisable to use aloe vera by itself as it will have better effects!
Then in Introduction to Human nutrition lecture, i learnt that Dietary fibre is very good for your health!! Ok, first it decreases cholesterol level. Secondly, it lowers risk of getting colon cancer. Thirdly, it fills your tummy up and so you wun get hungry easily. Fourth, it actually helps you to lose weight!
yuppp.. so that's all the lesson i learnt for the day! its great!!!

tired + sick

I ammmmm so tired right now... zzz.. gonna go to bed soon... tired and wanna rest.. hmmm... my lessons are almost always from 8am onwards which is so difficult for me to wake up in the morning but i guess i just gotta start trying!!! for 12 weeks... I think i will be able to manage that!
From now on, i will use standard english. If there's any mistake, please correct me! This is mainly due to the fact that i am taking a english course and i don't want to fail it! Everything is school is going fine so far and i hope the projects later on will go well too. My timetable is quite packed on Monday and Thursday, where i will be running from faculty to faculty to rush for my lectures. I am regretting my decision to pack everything together now. x_X..
Things are a bit harsh for my family lately, but i guess we've been through the worst, so we will be able to pass through this!

A new Semester

It's a new school year and everything has been going fine so far except the fact tat i am really sick...><"... oh well... i think i will really go to the doctor later.. Aniwaes, I've got the modules i wanted but i realised that the allocated modules such as Biostatistics and Biodiversity lectures are really BORING... ><"... I fell asleep in both lectures this week...
Cosmetics and Perfume is a very interesting module which we talk about different types of cosmetics, including their history and the chemicals in the cosmetics. I'm not so sure what we are gonna talk about in perfumes until tml!
Also taking Nation-building and Introduction to nutrition. Nothing much to say about them. Nation-building is a very big class and i guess there are some weird students....... and in Introduction to nutrition, it is a very small class of maybe 50? Yup.. and the lecturer is a very nice guy! Hope he lets us off early tml too!!! haha...

Pictures from prom.

This is me after my make-over! pretty ma??

My flowery bracelet. The tradition of proms in.. er.. america i guess.. can't find ppl wearing this in singapore... -.-"...

Have a view of my full dress!!! prettyyyyyy ma?

Me and a bunch of my old friends at the prom! Munshee and Maureen! Maureen.... gosh u look so pretty tat nite! Dazzling!!!!!

Holidays

It's been so long since i last posted which was during the exams. Heard that my results are coming out on 21st dec which is the day i am going to beijing. I guess this is good afterall since i will get some time to relax and actually not frown over my results.. heehee.. and get to enjoy my holidays afterall..
These few days have been rather uneventful since i have to go to work and stay at home. Talking about work, i have to work at 4pm which is in another hour's time.. AHhh... Few days ago i went to Olympus to get my camera fixed because the zooming spoilt. Then me and my bf went to OUB centre to take a walk around and look if there's any dress for the prom. There's this shop which i don't know the name, but its really cool cz almost all of their dresses come in one piece only. I tried on a dark red dress which was really niceeeeeee... but guess what? it costs 300++ bucks. I guess the price is not too bad since it is a famous brand which i forgot the name. heehee. and it is really really pretty. I am going again on monday to take a few more looks at other dresses and hope can find one tat i really really like! aniwaes, anyone has any other requests before i go to beijing? Vivi wans a new cd, lt wans a pooh bear.. anithing else???... *taking requests now*

totally depressing..

The first exam i ever took in university, is the most depressing one so far. *not tat i have took any other exams yet* and who told me uni was EASY? HUH? It was pretty HARD. Totally depressing and i was knocking my head against the table when the exam ended. I have never been this demoralized before!!!! gosh... what were they thinking when they set the paper. Maybe I should take another look/perspective at the life in uni. arghz. But it seems that i am able to get over it very fast. I ended up shopping in Esprit later and saw a dress which i think is quite suitable for prom.... And nix was saying how fast my mood changes from depressed to shopping happily. Haha.. i am amazed at myself as well... something must be wrong with my hormones that i can change so fast. I guess the idiom about women are like .... ermm i can't remember but it seems quite true...

Exams

I'm so stressed out now. -exams tomorrow and tuesday- I have genetics tomorrow which i havent touch on at all, and biochemistry on tuesday which i have not even finished 1/3 of it! This is soooooo sad...
And after nxt week i am having my finals which is even more stressing than ever..... Just hope i will be able to pass all my papers. Not aiming for any A this semester but hope to get at least a PASS.... ><"...

My First Time

heehee.. what do u think when u see the title? First Time kissing? first time..... bla bla bla? nAH!... My first time to KboX! haha... so vivi ah i gave u my first time.. *blushes*.. hehe.. i am joking.. but it is really my first time to kbox la. Vivien is SOOOOOOOOOOo good in singing.. i was so surprised.. haha.. pretty girl with pretty voice! me on the other hand.. hahahah... i can barely sing... ><".. haha and she's good with her cantonese too.. i should learn from her... heehee.. go sing more k and i will know cantonese better?.. lol.. but it was really fun!! singing non stop for 3 hours straight? hahaha... interesting.. and skipping songs...
Then later we went to play pool. She's damn good!!! so many balls can go in.. i can hardly get a ball in... ><"... then we went for second lunch at Thai Express... haha curry so hot!!!! then we went to look for vivi's bf and she bought food for him.. so funny...
We went for further shopping and bought lots of stuff.. tat's why i am going broke... waaa..... aniwaes, haha i still had a fun day!!! thanks vivien!

reminsicing the past

Just been onto Vivi's blog and seen the picture so couldn't help borrowing from her. Hope you wun mind gal! and u dun have to ask how i manage to copy it from ur diary.. :P.. The song, combined with the picture is the perfect combination to reminsicing the past. It seems like yesterday when we were still playing around in the snow, taking pictures and building snowman. *but did we really build a snowman?* nah.. we merely pull strings of two person together. Everything was so innocent then. Everyone was so fun to be with. People are nice, stand up for you and giving you the perfect company anyone could actually ask for! I really miss those times. How i wish everyone can hang out together for once again.
Although there were ups and downs in the school, especially problems with matt for almost two years. In case anyone doesn't know, this guy is the jerk that messed up my life in beijing and i totally hate him. But i guess it did create some laughter for others. Especially the romeo and juliet drama. x_X.. I was acting as the prince in the play, and he was some erm.. sword person? So i was supposed to put up a speech with NO ONE disturbing me. And in the middle of the speech, he scared me with the sword by suddenly pointing and yelling at me. ><" I got totally freaked out. But it got the entire class laughing so its not too bad.
Besides him, everyone else is wonderful. Playing basketball with vivi, jenny, yurie was one of the best times until yurie had to go back. Whatever it is, i wish everyone the best in their journey in life.

little time, many things

Wasn't exactly able to view many people's blogs because i've not actually been online for quite a while i guess. been kind of lazy, and just realised that i have to actually start studying. How ironic right? I'm not taking A'levels but i realised that it is very important that i actually start studying now and not fall behind. Haiz. I guess sometimes my brain has something wrong with it and i just can't point to which part of my brain. Anyways, i just found my exam schedule which starts on 18th Nov (which is supposed to be when most of the A levels end?) *definitely ironic* And it ends on the first december. *days of torture going to start soon*. You guys must have thought it is a long time for a person who only has 5 subjects right? NO! I just realised that 3 of the subjects are one after another from 22-24 nov. arghz. this is going to be so tiring for me! *cries*
Anyway, i shouldn't keep nagging about myself here. It's almost 2 now. And i really want to complete my work before the next lecture. All the best to those taking A'levels and to all uni students for their semester exams! Hope i can get good grades.... *what am i talking about.. hope wun get me anywhere.. must strive for it......*

quick short update

heh.. i got lkike 5 min to finish updating i guess and includes shutting down my laptop and rushing for lunch? ><" . aniwae, i came across this phrase in vivi's blog which makes perfect sense. haha... "Relationships make your mind go haywire" haha... actually any sort of relationships will make your mind go haywire la! not only boy-gal relationship! x_X...
I've got another exam today... so sian... another 2 more min to go.... *so is it my typing slow or whaT*
Anyway, i worked the past two days and i am tired like crazy when i had to wake up at 7 this morning to go to school!!!!! damzn... kinda hate monday mornings.... aniwae, i saw a really cute shirt in Esprit which i kinda like.. haha... i should stop working.. gosh... cz everytime i go to work, i will find something nice and i wanna get it...><".. aniwae its winter season so probably i will find nothing to get soon!!!! *big smile*...
lesson till 7 today... arGHZ!!!!!!!

dotz

Just one simple question. is getting a 50% pass in exam tat bad? especially when u almost have not went for any of the lectures before? ><".. why do others all tell me the score is really bad. haiz. but i was really happy with the score. so why are some of them so unhappy about it. haiz i don't really how to explain myself. just that people don't seem to understand me. can't seem to find anyone near me who will understand me.

Sundays

Have i ever said how i hated Sundays? For some, Sunday is a great day for family gathering, fun with friends and everything else. But for me, i simply hate Sundays. I guess it’s just not my day and I always have mixed feelings about Sundays. Don’t know what happened in the past that resulted in me dreading Sundays, but i know for sure, i hate the loneliness of Sunday which no one can understand.
Sometimes on Sundays, i just have these bad/unhealthy thoughts. Don’t worry. It’s definitely not doing harm to people. But my brain just go blank on Sundays and there is nothing that i want to do. Time just pass like nothing and there’s just too much on my mind. Wonder if it’s too much thinking or just plain mind explosion on Sundays.
Look at life. Some says it should be treasured while some thinks that it is nothing. Some people can be very happy even though they have lots of family problems while some, are always gloomy even if they have the perfect life. I wonder what kind i am.
Have you ever regretted doing something? I bet you did. I mean, I regretted doing a lot of things. Being so childish in the past, so demanding, not understanding enough and all sorts of stuff. I mean, no one is perfect right? But i think i am the most imperfect one around.
So what if i am in university now? It’s nothing to be proud of. Look around, there are so many undergraduates and graduates around you. It’s not that hard to get into a university after all. So what if you get into university? It doesn’t mean that you are a very successful person right? How do you measure success anyway? Is owning the 5 Cs successful? Or having a big company such as Microsoft? I mean. These material gains can be measured easily but what about emotions within you?
I guess i am talking rubbish right now so ignore me. Be content with your life and i guess i am a pig brain afterall.

Five Days of holiday

I still can't believe it. Today is actually thursday! Which means I have an exam tomorrow. Arghz. I Actually thought that the holiday last for one week! But who knows, it actually starts on Sunday and ends on Thursday. What kind of holiday is this?? *hmmm?*
Tomorrow I will be having a exam on Real Estate Development and Investment Law. A little don't feel like studying but i guess i will study after my dinner! I'm going off to Ramen Ramen for dinner! hope the food there is good or else my tummy is suffering for nothing!
These few days have been quite boring cz i've been a sleepyhead and actually waking up close to 12pm! haha... i slept late too (so tat gives a bit of leeway ya?) Anyway, nothing much is going on. Went to Marina Square on Tuesday and i actually lost my way? haha... I was searching for a Esprit shop and i actually walked one big round without realising that it was just nearby. Arghz. So shopped around and crapped.
Lots of work due next week so i guess i have to bucked up! hahaz.. good luck to everyone else!

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Listening to this music from vivi's blog.. sounds pretty sad.. *haiz*.. Don't know why but it got me to feel sad.. Many things are going through my mind now.. not sure of what i should do next or what the future may brings.. Actually, feels like going to the ward the vivi is working in now to experience what it feels like to know, to see and to feel the feelings that the patient and his/her family goes through in the battle of life and death. The simple will to live, to battle against the terminal disease, together with the support and encouragement from the family, seem to be the most touching thing in life.
Of course, I'm not in that situation right now. But really feels sad, and probably out of place right now. Not knowing what is the next step, or should i continue being like this. I'm just simply sadden by the strong will of some to live on despite the pain they have to endure, and the will to die for some because of the problems that they are facing.
Wonder which one am i? which sort of person? To live or not to live? to continue or to stop? * of course, i am not commiting suicide here if some of u are taking it that way....*

Environment in Library

I seem to like the library more and more each time because its quite cofortable and everyone looks so studious here. It sort of puts me in the studying mode. Although still alone in the library this time, I seemed to discover a different thing and feels really in place here. I can focus on my work more in the library than at home. *amazing ah* I bet many of you will agree with me on this. Another 20minutes more and I have to head for the second lecture of the day, Genetics. I never seem to understand anything there but this time, I am going to try and understand what the professor is trying to say. After the lecture I have a practical session on DNA until 6! Not sure if there is going to be a tutorial after the practical session but let's hope not! I don't wanna go home at 7!!
Still got to finish a lab report here, but at least i made sense of what is going on finally! guess i will be able to finish everything tonight if I don't slack around! Yippee! I think i will stay in my room and do my work instead of facing the tv this time!

One more week of school

The first term is ending soon. After next week there will be a week of holiday!! Yippee!!!! THe few weeks of school have been tiring and they were quite fun although tiring.... but some lessons can be boring... Actually slept through some lessons and even skipped some.. *that can be how boring lectures are*..
Nothing much is going on in school.. met a few friends.. attend some lectures and also tuitorials.. oh ya! i bought a new printer as well.. guess how much it costs???.. heehee... it cost.. it cost... cost... cost... co.. st... 98bucks! heehee.. so cheap ya? Saw the student exchange programme carnival.. it looks pretty fun but not something that i want to attend though! I am so sleepy now.. tomorrow gotta climb climb hill..x_X.. so tiring..... *zZz*.. so Good Nite now!
ohya, nix's prelims are coming.. wonder what should i get him.....

Alone in the Library

wahaaa... so boring alone in the library.. guess i better do some work! hmmm... Ytd i stayed at home and never go work.. cz went to the doctor... *tummy problems* and its hurting again now!.. *Cries*.. I've been having tummy problems for quite some time... guess its gastric prob.
After seeing the doc, she gave me some medicine for a week and told me to go back if it doesn't cure. Then she will refer me to a professional. *arghz*.. Anyway, I went back to secondary school on the day before teachers day and it was great to meet up with all my friends again!! Class 2B was one of the best class i ever had, and the entire day proof it!... hahaz.. We had dinner together as a class at Fish & Co, and i guess we jus chilled around in Yoshinoya discussing our chalet plans!! Its gonna BE FUN!!! *yippee*... And of cz, we made quite a lot of prank calls disturbing other ppl... heehee.. very mean but we just couldn't help it.. Joel with his Hongkong Accent tried to disturb Jean, Mahadhir, Maureen and a few teachers! haha... pretty successful with Jean i guess.. czx she kept scolding swear words!... hahaz... Just hope the day of chalet will come soon and we can hang out as a class for one more time before the guys get into NS!!! yippee...

Esprit DInner and Dance

Heyo Heyo! Welcome to the Magical Kingdom of Esprit! heehee... Yesterday was our annual Dinner and Dance celebration for Esprit. Although i've only joined for 2-3months, it was really fun in the shop! From the first sentence, you should be able to tell that we had a magical evening of fairytale characters from all over Singapore! Heehee.. Yesterday i was dressed up as one of those ladies in Aladdin, which is a pretty interesting costume. There are little Mermaid, Sleeping Beauty, Alice In Wonderland and many more! I love the rabbit and poker cards in Alice in Wonderland! It is soooooooo INTERESTING.. heehee..
We had some refreshments outside the ballroom with ppl from other stores. Looking at them dress up as characters in fairytales is really cool! saw some cute ones too.. *heehee*.. Anyway, there were two guards standing outside the ballroom and it was pretty cool! Once seated in the ballroom, the fairies from the HQ came out with our prince king queen and princess from Esprit.. *which meant the big shots of course*.. THe host of the night was also a great person! he brought the atmosphere to the highest point! Everyone was so enthu *except one table across ours* and we were shouting our heads out! heehee... we had a Esprit Idol 2005 competition and it was fantastic!! Some of them danced great and u know, some exposed too much too..x_X.. after that we had a dance.. NOT classical kind of dance, but clubbing kind of dance! WooHoo... everyone just went crazy! haha.. some even danced on the stage.. *includes me*.. After that, we had a lucky draw which gave away like 80++ prizes! gosh.. i didn't win the first prize.. it was a trip for 2 to Japan... *cries*.. but its ok.. even if i win i also cannot go.. hahaha... Christina, one of my colleagues, won that prize! haha she was jumping like crazy!
I went home with Aishah and Sarina at about 1 in the morning..x_X.. so slept around 2... but it was fun!!!!!

Happy Birthday!

Ytd was National Day, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY Singapore! so.... yesterday nixon woke me up with a call cz i think he was pretty excited about going out! But i told him i wanna sleep so i continued to sleep for a while before actually getting out of bed and washing up. Around 10+, i woke up to brush my teeth, take a short bath and started dressing up. Halfway through, he arrived. Waaa... so early..x_X.. But i took my own sweet time to put on make up and stuff.. Heehee.. After that we went out because the movie starts at 1.15pm. We met his Uncle on the way, which we always do when we go to Plaza Singapura for movies. Heehee.. we watched Seven Swords which was really NICE! but the front was pretty disgusting actually. A bit too violent..*ek*.. Anyway, we brought in a lot of food which were restricted. Heehee.. but it was not enough to last us for the entire session.. *cries*.. After the movie, we walked around and i went to SaSa to get some stuff that i needed. Then we went to Fort Canning for a walk, which we went out of quickly because i was bitten by lots of mosquitoes as usual. *bleh*.. We went back to Plaza Singapura and home. My tummy couldn't take in anymore food and my legs were tired.. x_X... so sorry to nix cz i spoilt his mood.. Anyway, we played nitendo when we reached my house, and later mahjong with my bro and sis..x_X.. haha.. so tata, that's my day.

Change of bloggy

This time i really changed the front of my blog, to a animated blogskin instead. So how does it look? I feel this might look a little too spooky though, with the seven month coming and all! I quite like the way it look, but the music that goes with this blog feels so SCARY! Anyway, I am dead bored at home right now that i am asking around if ANYONE wanna go out? haiz.. ok, guess i don't have that many friends after all to go out with.. =P... life is so boring... blehz.. I am going to shop for some facial masks tomorrow, so does anyone want to join me? Or anyone want me to do facial for them? hehez.. DEAD BORED..
So tomorrow i have to go for QET test at 10am till 12pm. Can someone save me from this misery? *cries*.. After that i think i will go do some shopping. BUT i have not got my pay yet... *Cries*.. nevermind.. I will try to windowshop then... *sob sob*.. This taught me not to spend so much money... So i gotta start saving up instead! *another goaL in life..*

YoYo!

Hey guys.. I've been slacking since sunday because i quit the full time job at Esprit! Now i am actually waiting for school to start next week! Yippee! I got into Faculty of Science in NUS, which i am rather happy with but not with the administration of NUS because there are so many complicated issues! So user unfriendly websites... *arghz*.. maybe it will get better later.
So i am in the science faculty, majoring in Life Sciences at the moment. Sounds fun ya? hope i won't be disecting any animals.... *eeeeeeeeeewwwwwww*... ANYWAYS... I am having problems trying to bid for modules using the online bidding system but it is just like gambling actually... *-.-*... Hope i get all the three modules i bid for! although they don't really sound interesting. *if you get what i mean*...
Having a QET test on friday which i am really REALLY mad about... arghz... It is actually a Qualifying English Test, which i feels really not suitable for me. Oh well, I can't escape from it so i HAVE to PASS it.. heehee... gotta go because i am going to go out with mum!

change of bloggy

Just changed the cover of my blog... how does it look now? seems the same right? haha.. but seriously, i just fell in love with the baby in the front page.. how i wish i can return back to the world filled with innocence and happiness.. Looking at this blog now, with the innocent baby, the soft music background, it kept me pondering over the past, the present and what will happen in the future for me. some say, live life to the fullest. But when i ponder over the uncertain future, of what will be in store for me, what life is going to be next, it makes me scared to make the next move in life.

continuous working

It's been almost two months since i worked in esprit.. another 1 plus week to finishing my two months in Esprit la~~~~.... *sob sob*.. but aniwaes, working is pretty fun and i didn't know that sales line has so many interesting things to learn! its all fun and games! although we meet demanding customers too... haha and oh ya! During the month of June, we had mystery customers who come to our shop and actually give us grades on our service! I had someone praising me! *yippee* so that means i done really good yea?.. heheee... *Big SmILe*... but some of my colleagues can be really irritating.. i didn't mean the ones in Jurong POint but the ones in MANDARIN... *oopz*.. i meant the guy aniwae... so he called over to check stock... *following is the conversation*...
MAN (stands for mandarin): Hello, check stock please.
ME: ok, style number please.
MAN: TG9556 100 size 34 *bla bla bla*
ME: ok hold on for the moment.
ME: found the stock
MAN: reserve for customer please
ME: ok, who is that?
MAN: what is your name?
ME: Shuqi
MAN: SHUQI??? .... SHuqi????.... shuqi???...
ME: ...ya...
MAN: really SHUQI???? the HongKong one?
ME:... NO......
Yeah, so we continued with the SHUQI conversation until i finally gave up... gosh... so what, my name is shuqi but hey, different WRITING OK ? ><".. maybe i should get myself a christian name so ppl don't start calling me all the different kinds of name... cz some actually wrote "chuchi", "suqi"... ya... lucky there's no SUSHI!!!!!... aniwae, would Sarah sound nice? give me opinions ya?

results are out

Ytd was a scary day for me cz i couldn't sleep and was so scared about results which were out at 11pm last nite. Dare not look so nixon went in for me, which LT volunteered for me too... thanks to both of u! *MuaCK* ok.. aniwaes, so i actually hang up on nixon 4 times because i was far too scared to know the results! *stupid right* But eventually i faced up to the truth and actually used paper to cover computer screen and look down one by one. Halfway through, My mum jus snatched the paper and said "see results then see la, cover wat cover...".. So, that's how i actually see all of my subjects.....
I got 7 for Chinese and Maths which i was thrilled (7 is the highest score while 1 is the lowest). But i got 5 for all the rest of my subjects which includes english, history, biology and chemistry. Pretty upset for biology because i wanted a 7. Oh well, but overall i am satisfied! So i got a total of 35 points which is pretty good actually.. heeheez... now i gotta wait and see what NUS/NTU actually say....... Hope i can get in!!!

working in Esprit

elo guys.. i have not been updating for sooooooo long cz i am working now.. heehee... i am working in Esprit, which is not pronounced as "Es -PRIT" but "Es-pree".. get it?.. haha.. learned alot about its history but realised that it is not as good as i thought it was?.. lol.. The trainer called April, kept telling us that Esprit is on pile with other companies like Guess and Levis but i think the other brands are more expensive than us.. oh well...
Lots of fun at work, sales target also damn high but i tink i never fail to hit it except a few times? lol.. tml still gotta work.. i wanna sell tons of bags.. lol.. so i can earn more money.. ppl come buy bags from me? or wanna buy watch also can.. lol.. got new watches wor!!!...but each of the watch is at least 100+++... x_X... must think that i am crazy right?.. almost the end of the month le.. means i collecting my pay soon!! yippee.. buy clothes buy clothes.. lol... anione wanna buy Esprit stuff?...

Linching, Rithika, Me and Ermi!

Chinese Clique Rulz!

Mary and Me! Right before graduation!

Me, Ermi and Ai Kubota!

Prom! Me and Nixon

Finally Graduated!!! Me and my Parents!

Picture right after make-over

exams over!

Yiippeee!~ My exams are FINALLY and i mean FINALLY O.V.E.R!!! i am so happy.. yeah but not now cz my mum is actually screaming in the kitchen and i don't know what came over her that made her SOOOOOO Upset and screaming.. *bleh*.. hmm... feeling a bit headache now and i don't know why... haizxXx... TOday had the last exam which was chinese! but i tink i kinda screw up a bit in paper 1 cz i had to write a short essay of 120words but i went wayyy over it... and i began cancelling and cancellingg.. which makes the essay bad~... *arghz*.. hmm.. after today i need to actually start looking for a job... anione got job to intro? anithing also can la.. haha.. jus dun tell me go clean toilet k?.. also depends on which toilet too... haha.. ok i am just crapping here...
I got my shoes! hmmm after i get my dress i will post a entry here to show u guys! heehee... friday is graduation and promnite !! so happy.. lalalla~~...

Friendless

wa.. i feel so friendless now.. *cries*.. i have not been going out with my old group of friends and feel so out of contact with them now... x_x.. feel so lonely although i got nixon with me.. *smile*.. but still a person would need friends right... x_x.. feel that i lost contact with most of my friends... 2B, red cross.. and many~.... arghzxXx... hai...

4 more subjects to go

Alritey.. I've already finished 6 exams.. which is only two and the half subjects... Maths was going really good so hopefully i can get a 7.. well, at least a 6 and i will be happy.. chemistry was going pretty bad.. i know i can pass my MCQ.. but i have no idea about paper 2 because i screw up a 10marks question totally... x_x.. Then it was paper 3 yesterday which went quite well cz i studied! hahaz... well i woke up at 5 to actually read... so most of the stuff i know except i messed up one of my mechanisms which involve the use of UV light.. *bleh*... English was alrite too but the prose was really hard.. i couldn't even understand it at the first glance so i decided to write a commentary on the poem instead.. heheee.. but feel that i didn't go indepth enough because i forgot all about the dignity and stuff... child and insect is the title of the poem.. pretty easy piece of work.. =)..
So next week i am pretty much dying because i have 3 heavy subjects! First is English, where i have to compare 3 dramas.. Then is History where i have to start memorising my stuff!! and on the third day is BIO!! x_x.. i will survive ya?.. haha..
I've got my dress for the prom! its a simple tube top dress.. grey in colour.. quite comfy.. heehee... hmmm can't find a similar picture online but hey.. i will show u guys the pic after the prom.. *big smile*..

Skipping 2 and the half days of school

HmmzxX... yesterday morning i was trying to puke the whole time.. but couldn't get anything out of my tummy cz i didn't eat anything. So i went to the nurse and told her to let me sign out because i was feeling sick...but that ************(ok i dunno what to call her) wouldn't let me sign out and told me a whole series of stories which goes like this.. "Since you are in school, u are responsible to be in all your lesson and not deciding to go home halfway because you feel that you are sick. ANd in any case, since you knew that you were sick in the morning, why did you come to school? If you came to school knowing you are sick, then you know yourself that you are fit for school.. blablabla~~~".. i got so fed up with her story that i didn't want to listen anymore~.. Blehz.. so i went to the Dean and told him to let me sign out.. he doesn't seem to care and let me sign out anywaes...
SO... TAKE TAT NURSE!! *muahhaha*.. ooopzxXx... so i went to the doc afterwards and she gave me a few med for gastric pain and stuff.. then check my Blood Pressure.. a little on the low side, which explains why i black out sometimes... but she told me what i should do if i don't wanna black out.. =).. so i guess i am fine afterall..
Skipping today and tml of school because i decide that studying at home is more effective than going to school and waste my time.. however! I overslept.. i woke up at 10?... haha.. so i tink i have to get back to study again! Chem chem chem...

1 week to exams

One more week to exams.. someone Please please save me from all these... i am failing my chemistry paper.. she is gonna be really really mad at us... *cries* not so confident of myself animore.. today she was screaming so badly in the hallway at Ida's homeroom cz we did really badly in our paper 3s... *cries*... i guess something have to be done about studies although i am studying really hard now.... I was actually hiding from the teacher for the whole morning lesson cz i heard about her.. haha.. when i heard her voice, i ran upstairs.. its so stupid ya?.. and i went down by another route... don't worry i didn't actually jumped from window.. but i actually used another staircase to escape... History is not going that well too but i guess i am surviving with it. Just need a little more practice and i will be fine.. as for English, i don't know what i will do.. haiz.. just let me relax for tml and then i will start to be hardworking again ok?... Good Luck to everyone else!.. and hope i will get really good score for my IB exams.. =).. i just hope to get at least a 6 for all the subjects.. is it too greedy??...

2 more weeks

Okay someone just SHOOT ME DEAD... I'm failing my chemistry presently and i am just D.E.A.D for the IB exams... come on.. maths is also bad enough for me because i don't understand some of the concepts and stuff... arghz.. everything is getting harder by the minute.. i should have put much more effort in things before!!!! ><".. She's gonna start screaming and screaming and screaming at us tomorrow.. just you wait... and then we will be doing and doing and doing tests on every lunch period which gives me an excuse to skip lunch and be on my diet schedule.. probably i should stop talking now and do my chinese and study my chemistry yea? but I feel that i am gonna SERIOUSLY fail my subjects.. arghz....
Two more weeks to exams.. and guess what i have first? I have mathematics on the first and second day, followed by chemistry on the second and third day... arghzx.. how tight can schedule be when the two worst subjects come together... and If you want to know what is worse, I have history exams the day before the biology exams... which means lots and lots of memory work!! and also lack of sleep... arghzx... SOMEONE SHOOT ME DEAD....

NKF show

I have not been blogging for a week? ><".. quite tired and i really need to get myself to study!!! I went to Padang on saturday where nixon had his match. he was trying to get me to go home but i refused and stay there under the sun for 5 hours i guess?.. Now i feel stupid for doing that cz i got sunburn really bad and i look like Rudolf the raindeer now.. ><".. arghzxX.. my face was cracking up really bad, as well as my back! Then ytd i went to orchard with my family and walked around, buy some stuff and came home?.. haha.. read up biology and i was actually watching the NKF show! THe part where Liang Zhi Qiang was using his tongue to stop the fan was REALLY SCARY!!! yeah and my mum said that only a fool like me would think that his tongue could be cut off by the metal fan...><"... Now i am actually in school.. slacking and typing.. haha i need to get to work..><"...

Holidays' over

It's my last day of holiday today and i am still left with tons of work to do! so someone pleasssssse kill me. Now i think i have some sort of motivations to study for my exams.. so ppl don't ruin it for me yea? -i need a new prom dress as well- and i think i want a long long one.. haha.. a long gown which looks nice on me? i can only wear dark colours... =.=".. due to me skin colour.. *CRIES*.. but still, i was happy when the saleslady at Daniel Yam said i should wear light colours.. lol.. at least someone out there was praising me... *big smile*.. what else.. hmm... yeah and me and nixon went shopping yesterday for my prom dress and he insisted on this dress which costs $145 but i was like, let's look at other dresses.. and i tried on tons of other dresses, and he was scolding and grumbling because i didn't like any of the dresses that i tried on for a few reasons... 1)i don't like transparent dresses. 2)i don't like dresses which are too low cut 3)i don't wear light colours 4)i am sorta "old-fashioned".... so, basically, i can't find a dress for myself.. ><".. so someone just kill me before i decide whether prom is still worth it..