Uncertainty

A wave of fear just overcame me. amino acids, keto acids, tyrosines, GABA, glutamine, glutamate.... these terms are driving me crazy. Been trying to memorize the different pathways and enzymes for the class test tml that is worth 20% of the module's grade. it's the second time i am taking this module, so i really wanna do well. but i am worried.
I don't know if i can take this anymore with stress piling up on other work as well. studying immunology was really hard as well. feel like tearing up all the books and just set fire on them. I dun even know what i am doing now. I feel totally out of place.
If not for nix, I will never be able to take anymore of this. thank you dear. for always being there.

Afternn Tea

Sitting at a little corner on my own, sipping on hot swiss chocolate, enjoying a plate of potato salad and busy typing away on my blog. Just the type of life that i like. It's 12pm now, which by right should be lunch time, but i had too full a breakfast to eat something heavy. Had a lecture on Immunology this morning and i was half asleep. hahax. didn't manage to absorb much in so i guess i have to study eh?
This weekend is gonna be so monotonous, with me studying and flipping notes. Hah. How ironic when one is supposed to enjoy weekends right? oh well, at least now i am enjoying my lunch. Time to get back to my work and look at hotels for holiday again! =) one of my biggest interest in life right now. heh. motivation as well.

Awaken

Sudden realization that i've been living in my own dream world these two years. A talk with one of my labmates yesterday pulled me back into reality. I haven't been studying much and thus resulted in my current academic results. A sudden realization that i'm not as capable as the others and i would have to study much harder if i am to survive in this university. Everyone around me works hard and no doubt, are smart too. And what am i? Not smart, nor working hard enough. huh.
The sudden urge to end university life has been on my mind these few days. Yet, I know that if i jus ends it like that, it would be hard to find a decent job outside with burning questions from employers asking why i dropped out from school. Everything i've been yearning for in the future will be ruined by myself if i put an end to my university life now.
Yet, the stress and the utmost pressure is making me feel utterly depressed about university. who said that university life was gonna be easy? Whoever said this was definitely nuts. But i know, i must perservere. jia you shuqi!~

Holiday

Went to Bangkok, Thailand on national day. it was a very interesting experience! instead of having a tour guide to bring us around, we just walked around on our own with the help of dad's colleague, Uncle Pisit. Went to chinatown where we had lots of Sharkfin *yum yum*, shopping at MBK centre and chatuchak *interesting places to go!!*
The most interesting experience was the massage. Hahax. I dun tink i wanna go into details here cz it was rather embarassing but comfortable! =) Aniwaes, not going to rant about the trip here but it is a must go place! =)

utterly stressed

got an F on my mid-term for molecular biology.
this stresses me out on the final exam. hai.

study!

it's time to get my ass to study. *ROARRRRRRR*
Major exams are coming, sub exams are next week.
stress stress and more stress.

missing him

already missing him..
*sob*

study!

from now on, i am gonna be a nerd till exams are over.
Just remember the shuqi with the spectacles and thick books.
Don't remember the crazy me till exams are over ok?

tired.

tired
tired
tired.
Though I've only been awake from about 11+am till now which is 12am, I am really tired. My stomach is feeling funny and my head is spinning. Managed to finish my geopolitics essay just now but I know from the bottom of my heart that it was really not a good essay. I guess it is time for me to pay attention in lecture. haii.
My exam on friday was a total mess. The topics which i studied hard for didn't came out but the ones that i did a 5 min study and went to bed came out as full length questions. =( Couldn't answer quite a bit of questions and this is quite sad. =(

Ra|nY DaY

pSuch a bad weather today!hate the weather! Make everything so dark, cold and nice for sleeping in!!!!! Yet i have to come to school at 9am today for my movie screening. iehosflwhlbewfho
It's 2.53pm and i am supposed to be studying for my 02 exam.... yet I am...... totally not in the mood. bleh~
Saturday i will be going back to old school. Hope everything will turn out fine. It's supposed to be a alumni gathering, so i hope it will be fun meeting up with old classmates! ALso gonna go to aunt susan house for chocolate fondue! -=she better prepare it nicely.. or i will start ransacking her storeroom for things that's not meant for eyes... =.=+ =-.. Hopefully will have a kbox session cz i miss singing so much...
Have been listening to 127day and its really nice in my opinion! Sweet slow song. heh...=) Time to get back to study!

Quick update!

Printing my notes now in the medicine printing place. The printer is realllllly slow. heh.. i think my file is way too big. Not exactly in the best of mood lately. Have been scolded like crazy during work by customer, my godgrandma just passed away and all the stress are piling up for me to do better in school. haix. i wish i have more time.

NeW HaiRstYLe

What ya think of my new hairstyle? Decided to curl it up after so long.. haha.. although this wasn't wat i expected.. -.-" A little too curly but heck la! =) A new hairstyle to erase all the bad old memories and start on a whole new journey! For a fresh year, I am gonna work harder than before and to achieve my goals! =)
Anyway, it was really funny when i was perming my hair. haha.. I totally looked like i was in my forties when the person released the curlers. Looked like one of those main characters in the movie Chicago. heh... but i am not gonna post up the pics here! =P
It's time to get back to my studies and prepare for the upcoming CA!!! =) wish me best of luck!

Mao Mao

In memories of my fav mao mao. 3rd nov 06 - 25th jan 07

I'm sorry. really sorry mao mao.

west coast park & my rabbits

Earliest day!

I've 2 days where the lesson starts at 8am. (tues, fri). It is really tiring to try to wake up this early.. YaWnn.. And guess what. This is the first morning that i am ever so early to school!!! Reached school at around 730am. Haha... When i came into the lecture theatre, there was only 3 people? haha.. so i guess i am still not the first one to come to school. It's another ten more min to class and people are coming in really slowly. Guess nobody likes to wake up at 6 to come to school. YaWnnn...
CNY is approaching and i haven't exactly found any clothes that i would like for CNY. I've only got a top that looks like a dress and that's it. x_X i need shopping time. Anybody?

2nd week of school

It is already the second week of schooL! And it is only today that i realised that my term holidays are in tune with the CNY holidays. *argh* that is like not giving us any holidays!!! *OBJECTION!!!!!* hai but i guess i can do nothing about it. My lecturer is 15 min late for class today! -not good for a lecturer- I hope she finishes up fast so that I can go home soon! =) Although i don't really have much hope for that. =(

Went to fishing pond on saturday. It was terrible totally. x_X The uncle was scolding my brother for sitting on the sofa (which i really don't understand cz there wasn't any sign which says do not sit) and sacarstically scolded me for charging my laptop. x_X NO MORE FISHING POND! *ROARRRR*

Anyways, more pictures!

Me and dear at Sungei Buloh. =) pretty sight. saw a crocodile too.


Aint' this cute?? =)

updates

It's been almost 2 mths since i last update? Have been working alot lately, if not have been slacking at home or going out with friends. Damn tired now cz i woke up at 630 this morning for lecture. *YAWN*
Went to shanghai during the holidays with my family and some friends. It was an okay trip but nothin much about it. I bought my rabbits a new cage as a christmas gift! Really likes it alot. Apparently they became quite lazy after getting the new cage but I need to train them on where to pee and poo! It is getting quite irritating cleaning the cage.. *arGhhh* In any case, take a look at my baby rabbits!

tired and stressed

recently, my bf jus plucked a white hair out of my hair. this shows how stressed i am. haix. Tomorrow is my Cell biology exam and i really hope to do well in it. Actually, i hope to do great in it in order to pass the module. Somehow, i just have a bad feeling about it. -sad-
Really tired now. just wanna go to bed. haix. study study study

miserable

dun talk to me. totally miserable. right to the bottom of the ocean.

newborn babies

Ain't the babies cuteee? I know i have not uploaded for a long time. Lots of work to do but i am a little lazy lately. Haix. *must study hard* but aniwaes, these cute little babies were born on saturday, 4th november 2006. There are 5 of them, and i have already named one! The blackest inside is called blackie.. heee.. he is one of the more naughty one inside! When you try to touch him, he will attack you. haha.. all of them are really fat and bloated now.. Chocolate, my white rabbit, have done a good job in feeding them. Good girl!!!
But on the day that the babies were born, nixon's graddad passed away too. *haix*.. I hope the entire family will deal with it well.. *rest in peace*...
Time to go back to my studies now.. dun really know wat to write for the essay.. how how? can anyone give me any ideas?